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I always thought that only certain people could experience life changing events. Like becoming famous, descovering something, being a real somebody. I always figured that since it takes unique people to be worth remembering or of importance, I must be someone in the jean pool who is just a person who happens to be occupying space. Sounds depressing, I know, but even though people dont actively say that they are like this, unkowningly view themselves like this. what made it worse was I was (still am)a christian, and we are to know that we were created to love and serve God. Then I began thinking, if so then whats wrong with me? I go to church, read my Bible, but I see the same pattern, day in day out. If Im just another "space filler" in this world then why bother when there are more important people who can do a better job at living for God. On the other hand, I begin to wonder "what if". Even though I felt like i could predict my dull life, what if there is more to this? if God says that He loves us and has a plan for our lives, why do we live wishing to be someone else or worse, wishing this one would end. What I have noticed now is that it wasnt the fact that I felt bored of being a christian, but God was getting my attention. to make a long story short, right now i feel like letting anyone who read this know, whether or not you believe in God, to try Him. Seven years ago I would be too ashamed to write on the enternet about how I hated myself, but now I am proud to live this life because when I decided to descover what God planned in my life, for the first time I felt valued. I hope if your reading this I dont sound too preachy or anything, but I want to share with someone somthing that can radically change thier life. Just recently I led my first Sunday sermon and soon I plan to continue on. Several times I would become nervous and doubt in myself, yet i would alsways shun them away becuase for the first time I realized that anyone and everyone have a reason on this earth. For me, my passion is to speak to teens who were like me. To be honest, there is not a single person who doesnt have a calling on thier life. My prayer is that they will descover it in Christ. :)